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Falke's avatar

"...I’ll still think about him even after the time that has passed since he left exceeds the time that he was in my life..."

Give a girl a warning before immediately starting with a world-altering quote. Heartbreakingly beautiful writing.

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wenyi xue's avatar

Haha thank you so much <3

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the despite system's avatar

Coming back to Substack after a while away means I must catch up on my wenyi fix, and good lord, did this one deliver. So many lines that stuck out to me, but these few really rendered me breathless:

"I don’t want to move on. Please don’t make me leave this post."

"You once asked me what kind of God I wanted, so here is your answer: give me a God that will give me you. And if I cannot have you, give me your heart. And if you will not give your heart, I will gnaw at the heartbeat instead — fleeting thing that it is. Oh, my love, is this how you saw me too? Did this metaphor carry over to time; have you been measuring me in dog years?"

The first reminds me of a line from the gut-wrenching album "A Crow Looked At Me" by Mount Eerie. He wrote it about his wife who passed, and there's a line where he says, "I don't want to learn from this. I love you." This line of yours gave me the same energy. The same ache in my chest.

The second, the passage, I mean... COME ON. "have you been measuring me in dog years?" OH MY GOD. Just so good, friend. This is stunning.

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wenyi xue's avatar

Eli!!!!! So happy to have u back <333 thank you so much for reading + sending u all the love <3

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Desdinova's avatar

"I won’t ask you for the world, just the pieces your shadow falls on."

So beautiful and bittersweet 🖤

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wenyi xue's avatar

Haha thank u <3

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carmela's avatar

Goodness, the desperation is so.... I'm rendered speechless. This again is another masterpiece!!!

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wenyi xue's avatar

Ty very much :) <3

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aysha's avatar

i guess ill just gnaw at my own bones at how insane this makes me <333

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wenyi xue's avatar

Hahah thank you <3 glad u liked this :)

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Inab.'s avatar

I admire your desperation

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wenyi xue's avatar

Haha I'll take that as a compliment?

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Amelia Adams's avatar

This was beautiful.

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wenyi xue's avatar

Thank u so much :)

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nadav's avatar

Been feeling like a hound recently

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wenyi xue's avatar

woof woof 🐶

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Dodo B Bird's avatar

I think what his name now .. the pre punk punk rocker wrote this as a song....."now I wanna.....be your dog....."

Dodobbird.pixels.com (art)

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wenyi xue's avatar

idk that one! :0 ty for reading :)

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Dodo B Bird's avatar

Just remembered. Iggy Pop. Or Iggy Pop and the Stooges. I think. I swear I think I got Swiss Cheese for brains. I'm sure it's got to be on the You Tube. Mostly kidding but I could hear the chorus reading the end of your story poem.

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julie izabeia's avatar

"You once asked me what kind of God I wanted, so here is your answer: give me a God that will give me you."

i'm gonna go feral over this piece

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wenyi xue's avatar

Hahaha thank u <3 fitting to use the word feral hahaha

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Moone's avatar

This makes me think of 24hr Dog - Fka twigs. Your writing is so captivating Wenyi and this piece is beautiful and beautifully written. All the emotions conveyed are hitting where they’re supposed to hit !! I’ll read this one again

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wenyi xue's avatar

Thank u so much!! I'll give the song a listen :) <3

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nellie martin's avatar

i'm ill over this <3

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wenyi xue's avatar

hahaha thank u <3

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ethan's avatar

oh my GODDDD girl this whole piece felt like a dagger to the ribcage 💔

the desperation, the yearning expressed in this dog metaphor is literally insane. the recurrent mentions of time and memory and truth… this is such a love-charged piece of writing i will be clinically obsessed for the reeessttttt of my life 🫂😔

i love u girl sm keep writing 😕🥹🫶🫶🙏

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wenyi xue's avatar

Hahaha thank you so much <3 always such a delight to get a comment from u

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ethan's avatar

im so glad u find my cmnts delightful hehe 🤞💌

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abigail 🐌🪷's avatar

everytime i read a piece from you, i fall in love with your prose and i fall in love with language and literature. you're a true gift. erich fromm speaks about how love is bridging the separation between you and the world and with every piece i read from you, i feel my heart being torn out of my chest closer to the world. i adore you.

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wenyi xue's avatar

oh wow thank you so much 🥹 that's so unbelievably kind of you to say. happy to provide that kind of connection <3

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lindsay louise nissenbaum's avatar

Beautiful and so painfully relatable 🖤

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wenyi xue's avatar

Thank you so much :)

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Ashley Felice's avatar

Incredible.

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wenyi xue's avatar

Thank u <3

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